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In this world one is not supposed to be HAPPY ( uh, uh)! I have come to do my duty! So, I am at ease with the truth, but not with the destiny. Oh, yes, this is about my life, with an ounce or two of huor... In my THIRD year I was aware I would have not ventured into politics, mine was not a ruthless HEART. So I could not become a criminal, either. In the FOURTH year of my life I understood I had reached the big four years, got measles, swore and felt my mother's hand, and realized I had a face. I wanted to climb up the Orlando's statue to preach the good things, to talk obout injustice. My father said that injustice was essential to make us do good. In my TENTH year of existence I tried a cigarette, and employed enormous efforts not to smoke ever again. When I was NINETEEN a tramp told me every man was unique and irreplaceable. Each of us is worth the whole world. Or inasmuch as one is allowed... I enrolled the Academy of Arts, spoke about the war, against Picasso, believed that the brush and colurrs were assets, the assets to serve me, take me to immortality. Turning TWENTY-ONE I realized that one can die for NOTHING, for one wrong step... Life is enigmatic and worth nothing. I did all my best, all I could, I outdid my owen self. I stopped inquiring who we are, where are we going to. You guess, love had been beheaded, had turned into a blood system, irreplaceable, infinite. At TWENTY-FIVE I was handed the diploma of my graduation from the Academy of Arts. I got a kick that launched me, good-willingly, into the world, practical and cruel. I took my,bag, some socks, a tooth brush, was drafted and work up from a dream. Oh, mein Gott! In my THIRTIETH year, I put a ring on my left hand, become depending. At THIRTY-THREE I already admitted to myself I was no Jesus Christ Superstar. I got a son, fusiliers fired, dances were danced, wine was spilled. And was finally nominated for a recognition. Cynically and indifferently I admit I did not deserve the AWARD. The mirror said to me; if you accept it, the award will lose any sense... I took to writing (mind your own business, shoemaker, said the Mirror). Yet, who knows what place suits one best, where is one at his best? In my THIRTY-NINTH year, a HOUSE happened to me, problems amassed. I sold my soul for petty cash, become aware of my uselessness and transience. At FORTY I fond out that life had brought me nothing. I started learning about adjustments... I will not forget my FIFTIETH birthday for as long as I live; I was having a beer. The WAR began, shells were wounding the Stradun. A chaos, both wonderful and exciting. |
In my FIFTIETH year I am stil painting, writing, still studying the commandments, slowy adjusting to my age, becoming more obedient. At FIFTY-FOUR I received chart of the Museum of Modern Art Dubrovnik for merits and contributions to and the promotion of the MOMA Dubrovnik When FIFTY-SIX I screamed, and quite prankishly declared that work was a PUNISHMENT -to the working ones. At fifty-seven someone decided to give me an award (without modesty- I liked it), but then I didn't know whether it was an annual op a life award. After strong clamour, I received a high national decoration ¨Red Danice hrvatske s likom Marka Maruliĉa (Croatian Star of Merit in Art Danica Hrvatska with Marko Maruliĉ Medal ) and I had to buy a donkey to carry still one award-a we were walking along Stradun like two parade horses, proud and dignified. Then it happened to me to see Ameriica, I noticed some rust on its new planking. I declared foolishly that a man should see during his life four places in the world: pyramids in Egypt because of history and paces that don't die, New York because of ¨Color de luxe¨ and spectacle and of course Dubrovnik because of feeling of security. In my fifty-eighth year I was broadly ewposing my paintings, feeling that I was standing on a wrong leg. When fifty-nine, I had a feeling that every thing was question with me-playing and imagination. As a comfort I received the first prize of the Salon of Valdinger in Osijek. So, I am having good time, writing anecdotes about myself. That is all right, that is something every man needs, says the Mirror. My answer is that every person without an explanation is illegible. As of today, I am reading Baron Munchausen, identifying with the role, playing in this minitheatre, this wonderful, prepotent city, I an bearing my own CROSS into the world...that is, it is so boring, even to put a period mark here. Bye!
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